Meeting You…

I certainly remember the first time I ever looked into your eyes. They where so bright and wide. It was the first time I was ever able to experience how people can be truly genuine and kind. I felt as if I knew you from a past life. I felt free. I felt limitless possibilities. Yet somehow, I knew that you where special. I knew that you would have a major effect on my life. I suspected that I would fall in love with you. In fact, the very same day I met you, I prayed that you would not break my heart. That I would not have to deal with the unimaginable scrutiny of heartbreak. But I kept running into you, and I knew that I liked you immediately. There was just something about you. Yet somehow, just seven months later after the internal conflict and destruction of self that I endured from loving you in vain, when I looked into your eyes I began to feel angry and betrayed. The love and possibilities I felt when I met you have turned into hatred and bitter coldness. I hate having to see you. Still, I love the subtle occasions when you and I see each other. Because then you see passion. I know you do. You see the love my soul has to offer. My love does not feel so vain anymore, and I reclaim my power and the virtuosity of my heart.

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Lose The Argument, Not The Relationship

Relationships are going to have problems that is inevitable. You are going to argue, you are going to stop talking for a few hours or a day, you are going to get really jealous, you are going to have doubts. With all the love, the corniness, the fun…there will be problems. The question is whether you would let the bad times outweigh the good times.

19 Khloe Kardashian Quotes to Help You Slay Life

  1. I’m proud of myself. I could break and go get all this plastic surgery and get my nose fixed and get lipo or do whatever, but I haven’t chosen to do that because I know I’m a great person. I’m pretty damn hot, if you ask me.
  2. You can’t expect everyone to love you. I’m not someone who just wants to throw out hate, just because.
  3. I’m strong and fearless and not afraid to take risks in business.
  4. I’ve learned from experience you just never know what happens in life.
  5. We all have to start somewhere, and doing something is better than nothing at all. Start small so you don’t get discouraged and give up. Remember it is all about consistency.
  6. I have a really close relationship with God. I have more conversations with God, and it’s very therapeutic to me. It helps me through a lot of trials and tribulations. l
  7. I have two younger sisters and I’m such an advocate of owning who you are as a person. Don’t be ashamed or intimidated. Never feel like you are not amazing.
  8. I don’t think because I hang out with enough black people, I’m gonna turn black. What kind of rationalization is that? I’m just friends with people that I like. I don’t care what skin color you are.
  9. Fame comes and fame goes, but you have to be able to laugh about yourself and to take it with a grain of salt.
  10. Letting go doesn’t mean that you don’t care about someone anymore. Its just realizing that the only person you really have control over is yourself.
  11. We must lose in order to gain. Lessons are best taught through our darkest hour. Through crying and loss. All of my pain or sadness has only built my strength, soul, character, and wisdom. One day, all of our {trials} and tribulations will add up and make perfect sense. Until that day comes, learn how to laugh at confusion and dance in the rain.
  12. I believe in love at first sight, but I will always believe that the people we love, we have loved before.
  13. Just because someone doesn’t love you the way you love them, doesn’t mean they don’t love you with all their heart.
  14. Stop shattering your own heart by trying to make a relationship (friend, family, partner) work that clearly isn’t meant to work. We have to stop trying to repaint people’s colors. We have to learn to believe the love we AREN’T given. You can’t love someone into loving you. (God I wish it where that easy.) You can’t force someone to be loyal, kind, or understanding. You can’t force someone to be the person you need them to be.
  15. Talking about our problems in excess is one of our biggest downfalls. Choose to manifest our blessings! Focus on the joy in life. We rise by uplifting others!!!
  16. Never forget that fate loves the fearless.
  17. When your intent is to love yourself instead of abandon yourself, you start being able to feel compassion for your past choices. You will start to be proud of the progress you’ve made in life. Instead of letting your past control your present, let it fuel your daily evolution to greatness. Don’t look at your past as a mistake. Look how far you have grown and be grateful. You will finally begin to grow and elevate to a better you.
  18. There’s a huge difference between giving up and letting go. Giving up means you are selling yourself short. It means allowing fear to limit your opportunities and keep you cemented in place. Stuck.
  19. Letting go means freeing yourself from something that is no longer beneficial to your personal growth. It means removing toxic people and toxic mindsets from your life so that you can make room for relationships and ideas that are conducive to your happiness and ever-evolving personal expansion. Giving up is self-defeat. Letting go is self-love.

Missing Someone

I think the thing about missing someone is that it’s not constant. You can go without thinking about them for days, weeks, months, years. Then all it takes is a familiar smell, or picking up one of their shirts from a clean basket of laundry, or reading just the right sentence in a book you only recently started reading. Missing someone can hit you so suddenly that you are left reeling and disoriented, as if you have been abandoned, except when you look around you are in a place you have been many times before. It can hurt, right in the center of your stomach like you have swallowed your weight in regret. Or it can be as small as a buzz right by your ear that you take only a second before you swat it away. What I know is that missing someone is humbling; it causes you to admit that you are not a solitary force in this world. When I say “I miss you,” I am saying I discovered a moment in my life where your absence was evident. I am admitting that I can not do certain things without thinking about you, and who you are, and the memories we have. And while I am made to believe I should apologize for that….I will not. I miss you. It is that simple. 

Things I Wish I Knew Sooner

  1. Faking confidence is the first step to real confidence.
  2. Not everyone is going to like you and that is okay.
  3. Your friends will like you more if you are honest and upfront.
  4. You do not have to get out of bed everyday.
  5. It is okay to cry.
  6. Ask yourself what you have got to lose when you can not make a decision.
  7. Some people are just bad people, do not try and change them.
  8. 99% of problems can be fixed if you speak to the person you have a problem with
  9. If you love someone, tell them.
  10. The first few people you think of when you say “nobody cares” are the people who care the most.

When I Lost You…

When I lost you, I remember the feeling in my throat turning to sandpaper. The red veins that ran vibrant through my body suddenly turned cold. I lay still in my room hearing my heart rate speed up as if I had just ran a marathon. It felt like the cells in my body suddenly froze and my brain could not catch up to my heart. When I lost you, I could not even process it because you were all I knew. And my body did not know how to live in a place not connected to you. It felt like a dream of someone else I knew. Except I could not pause it and I could not wake up. Maybe my brain was trying to protect me from my reality, but I felt numb all over; like my whole body was flooded with anesthesia. The scariest part was when the numbness died and I felt everything. It did not just come in waves, it came in one single tidal wave. I was drowning for a long time. On some days, I did not want to come up for air, I just wanted to sink deeper and deeper. Time has always been thought of as the enemy, as something to push back. But, I had found that time was my only friend in the loss of you. After awhile it made me want to swim instead of sink. It actually made me want to live my life again, instead of being the person walking around with ghosts in her head. People say that time heals all wounds, but I would disagree. Time will not ever heal a wound to forget that it is there or forget that it happened. Time leaves a scar to remind you of what you faced and how you fought through it. It will remind you of excruciating pain, but also how you grimaced through it and then felt relief when the cast came off.

New Week, New You

New week means new opportunities and a new you. Do not let the last week you carry over to this week you. Create change in your everyday activities to better yourself mentally, physically, intellectually, and emotionally. We all have the same amount of time in each day, how you use it will show you your future success very easily. Stay blessed and motivated this week friends!