I never thought I would find someone who would love me through it all. Someone who would except me with all my flaws. Someone who would understand why I did everything I did. Who would know my reasons. Someone who would be there for me on the quiet Sunday mornings, or the loud Friday nights. Someone who never wanted me to change, and never will. Surprisingly enough, that someone turned out to be me.
Hello this is Mackenzie here saying that in the months of September through June there will only for sure be one blog up every week instead of every day like I have been doing. I would like to apologize, but with it being my junior year I need to focus heavily on school with all the advanced courses I am taking. I might have two blog posts up some weeks as a bonus. Here are some other ways you can keep up with me: Follow me on instagram @mackiegriffin Twitter @mackenziegriff5
Sorry For the changes- Mackenzie G.
We complain about how much life sucks. But how much of it is actually bad? Sure, the guy of our dreams may have broken our hearts, but what about the millions of other people who have a broken life? They did not ask for any of this. We did. We allowed ourselves to trust the guy everyone else was warning us about. We let him control our emotions. The other people did not ask for their lives to be ruined. But look at us anyways. We are complaining about a life that is pretty damn great. We can get up on our feet and move forward. Where are the others going?
You leaving was not the end of the world. I thought it was. That day you left, I thought it was the end of the world. I eventually stopped crying and got up off the floor and woke up the next morning. It was not the end of the world, the sun had not exploded, nor had the continents been swallowed by the ocean. I thought that you leaving was the end of the world, and maybe it was, in a way. You leaving was the end of that world, that world with you and I in it, together. I think that world still exists, just not here. In this world I chose to get out of bed and put on a grey shirt and running shorts and I made myself cereal for breakfast and when I checked my phone I did not have a text from you, it felt like the end of the world all over again. I cannot tell you how many times it felt like the end of the world, like when I saw your face again and there was no feelings but bitterness and anger. I went home that day and cried so hard I forgot to breathe. I got up again and went on with my life because the world does not stop just because you broke my heart. The world does not work that way. If your heart is broken that is your problem and you need to find a way to make your own chest stop burning because the Earth is not going to stop revolving around the Sun and time does not have sympathy for anyone.
Just because your single does not mean that you are hard to love. You are not alone, you have yourself. You are at a great point in your life, where you can enjoy what you have and your freedom. You are not committed to anyone except yourself. Do not be in a hurry and do not find love, let love find you. You should spend your time for yourself to be the best version of yourself. Do not rush into finding love, find the love within yourself. Do not be sad if you are not in a relationship right now, someday at the right time, you will meet the right one for you.
It is okay. It is okay to want someone you can’t have. It is okay to want something more. It is okay to cry when you are hurt, and it is okay to stay mad at someone who hurt you. Believe it or not it is always going to be okay. “It’s okay” is not just something Juan Pablo said constantly on The Bachelor. That is just how it works. Sometimes things do not work out how you want them to, and most the time, they seem like they never will. But eventually, everything is going to fall into place one way or another. You just have to believe, keep your faith, and move on.
Do not allow him to consume you, it is the consumption that will kill your soul, that will destroy your self respect, that will take you when you are not looking. Sometimes love attacks you in ways you least expect it, and the person who said that love is not a destructive thing lied to you; love can be a terribly destructive thing, only if you let it. If he does not call, go to sleep. If he does not message you, put your phone away and have a good day anyway. If he tries to teach you a lesson through the silent treatment, ignore him completely. Do not allow him to take your attention completely away from anything that was in your life before him, whether it is family, your friends, and the things that you love. Do not allow anyone to emotionally manipulate you in any way, shape, or form. Recognize the signs. Someone who loves you will make mistakes, but they will respect you. They will always respect you. If he plays with your feelings constantly walk away from him. If he act like your body is his entitlement when you are not ready, walk away from him. If he forbids you from doing anything you love, walk away from him. If he tries to suggest he should always be the most important thing in your life, walk away from him. I cannot stress them enough, you live for yourself first. He is a secondary character in the story of your life. Do not allow him to turn you into a secondary character in your own book.