Happiness Pt.2

I fee like I hear all the time “When I am this I’ll be happy” or “When I get this old I’ll be happy” or even more common “When I get this I’ll be happy.” I’m sorry but you have the power to make yourself happy and it shouldn’t be in the hands of material objects. You don’t have to wait until the weekend or the summer to be happy. You can make yourself happy right here and right now. Happiness is a state of mind. You don’t have to have the best of everything to be happy. If we all had to have the best of everything to be happy there would be a lot of unhappy people living. So go out there and be happy!

Too Long For Twitter #30 (PROBLEMS)

Don’t be so hard on yourself. Think of it this way: ever wonder why it’s so easy to offer advice but when you’re in a difficult situation, the answers aren’t as clear? Thats because when someone else comes to you with a problem, they are in a maze and lost, while you have a birds eye view from above and can easily see where they need to go to get out of the maze. However, when you’re in the maze (your problem), all you see are barriers and need an outside perspective to help you turn the right way. Keep in mind, they can only tell you which way to go, but not force your legs into walking that direction. Whether to walk that way or not is entirely in your decision.

Too Long For Twitter #29 (Believe)

Believe that love is out there. And believe that dreams come true everyday, because they do. Sometimes happiness doesn’t come from money, fame, or power. Sometimes happiness comes from good friends and family, and from the quiet nobility of leading a good life. So take a look in the mirror and remind yourself to be happy, because you deserve to be. And always be thankful for the life you have, appreciate every moment, cherish every person around you and be grateful for everything.

What you Deserve

You deserve someone who will look at you and know that you are good enough. Someone who will not let you struggle on whether or not you are worth it, because you are. How people see you or label you does not add, change, or deduct who you are. You deserve someone who will never overthink your flaws. Someone who will realize how difficult it has been for you to love and embrace who you are, thus never allowing conclusively insignificant people ruin it in seconds. You deserve someone who will love you on your bad days and also on your good days. Someone who will see you in your most despairing moments and also in your joyous ones. Someone who will see you from flaw to flaw and embrace every single thing about it. You deserve someone who will see beyond your outer layer; who will see a smart, beautiful person who fiercely fights to survive life. Someone who will regard the intensity of bravery you have amounted to. Someone who will recognize your strong pursuit to overcome life’s hardest moments. You deserve someone who will see you and know that you are worth so much more than what they see on the outside.

I Forgive You…

I forgive you. You never apologized for everything that you ever put me through and you probably didn’t even notice any of it because people usually don’t notice things they don’t care about, and that’s what I was to you. I was just another person that existed, I was just another person that made you feel like you were worth something. All you ever did was make me feel incomplete. I’d wonder why all day you did not care about me the way I cared about you. I always knew what i was to you but I tried to ignore it for so long, I convinced myself otherwise because when you know that the person you care about, does not even give one care in the world about you something inside you shuts off and I couldn’t deal with that and I didn’t want to accept that so I kept trying to see something that was never there. I think that’s what destroyed me in the end, knowing the reality of what we were but trying to look past that and find something that wasn’t there.  I forgive you for all of it. I forgive you for the nights I stayed up crying because you chose her. I forgive you for leaving and then coming back just so you could leave all over again. I forgive you for the things that you said when you and I both knew you didn’t mean them. And I forgive you for using me. I forgive myself for everything that I put myself though. I forgive myself for letting myself believe that you really were the greatest part of me. I forgive myself for caring about you when you weren’t worth a damn thought. Because after stepping away, I see it all so clearly now. After I accepted what I really was to you, everything else made more sense. I destroyed myself in loving you and caring about you and for that I am so sorry but when I say I forgive you, I mean I forgive myself, I forgive giving so much of myself to someone that didn’t care how my day was going. I forgive myself for all the hurt I endured.

CHEATING

There is no point in finding someone when people these days just want to cheat and be with two people. I am not about that. It is sickening how people can just cheat and have it not bother them one bit but yet the person that is being cheated on it kills them. It rips them apart. It rips their flaws apart and just make them sink like quick sand thinking to themselves, “Am I really not that good enough for someone to stay true to me?” Someone that can just go behind your back and play you like it is absolutely nothing. People who cheat have no soul. They could not give two shits if they cheat on you until that person leaves them, then you see them trying to come back to apologizing and saying how dumb they were to do what they did to you. What the fuck? Why did they not apologize right away when they cheated? It makes no sense. This generation is disgusting. You have someone that can give you the world but yet you would rather be with someone short term and someone that does not really give a shit about you or only cares about you for a short period of time then someone else catches their attention. It is sad. It is sad that no one really has morals or self respect these days and if they do it is really hard to pick them out. It is hard to find those kind of people because they hide from the world because of what someone in their past did to them. They become afraid of opening up and falling in love again because cheaters do not care about who they hurt. They just care about the person they have while they leave you hanging, questioning why they did what they did. It is like is it really that hard to say, “Hey I lost feelings for you, I do not really think we should be together” instead of going behind someone’s back and just cheating on them until they find out through a friend or on social media. It is not that hard to stay true not to just yourself but to the person you are with. Just stay loyal and faithful. I just do not get how people can wake up and be okay with the fact that they are cheating on their significant other and have no desire to tell their significant other that they are cheating on them or seeing someone else. But actually CHEATING SHOULD NOT EVEN BE A THING! It just baffles me how someone will cheat on someone who can only give them sex when they have someone that can give them the world. But if someone wants to cheat as hard as it is you just have to accept the fact that it is the way they are and that you do not deserve someone like that. You deserve better. It is scary to fall in love because people are so capable of being sneaky. But, when you find that person that is nothing but loyal and faithful that you can feel it in your chest that they are the one that you want to spend forever with, it definitely will be a beautiful thing.